Copyright © 2017 by Jo Barlow
Dedication to my Tumour
26th September 2017 11.11pm
“Today I had 2 notifications on Facebook that I looked at one after the other. The first said "I fucking hate brain tumours and everything associated with them." The second post was a quote from Sargent Johnny Joey Jones (http://johnnyjoeyjones.com) with a picture clearly showing him with artificial legs from above the knees, saying:
"People ask how I stay so positive after losing my legs… I simply ask how they stay so negative with theirs."
These 2 sayings are just it… the difference is us. How we deal with our situations we find ourselves in. I really do understand that one of the hardest things is to love ourselves-
Saying you hate brain tumours and everything associated with them, especially when you either still have one, or have had one surgically removed seems to me so very wrong. You are hating a part of you-
I learnt so many positive lessons from my brain tumour. It caused me to digest and really absorb all the self-
You need to love you, to be able to totally unashamedly look into the mirror and be happy and grateful with all you have.
I am so thankful every day that I can do what I can do and although, yes I do get a little annoyed or frustrated at times with what I have lost. (and occasionally angry when trying do to something in a rush!) Most of the time I try to accept or improve things I need to do from a state of loving myself rather than hating myself for what I cannot now do.
As Anita Moorjani says very clearly in her books -
My brain tumour taught me:
That people I know care so much more than I realised.
As do people I didn't even know… Dr's and nurses who literally are there to help heal you.
Strangers who pray for you and send healing.
That our bodies are amazing-
That we have an inbuilt strength, love and healing power.
That being 'you' and loving you, is the best you can do for yourself and your family
Happiness is a state not a place and you certainly can't buy it!
To listen to myself. (and action it)
Or as I put in my book dedication to my tumour:
"You almost killed me, but you saved me too."